Trans Oh Pitaya's message

Translation: Oh Pitaya (OPTY)'s message/stand about this whole issue

Message: I’ve been thinking of what to say, but I was at the custom for the whole afternoon and I didn’t have my computer with me, thus I didn’t say anything up till now. 

Everybody has been asking me how I feel about this issue, actually, I’m just like everyone else. I am not a very rational nor tolerant person. People who knows me personally knows that I am someone that likes to get to the bottom of everything and I am still like this. Up till now, I cannot accept this and I also do not wish to pretend that I’ve accepted this. I’m sorry I cannot pretend as if nothing happened just to deceive myself. 

After Sungmin had release his official statement on his blog, I realised that this situation can no longer be salvaged. To be honest, I’m feeling upset and unjustified, and it is not because of “my idol getting married”. Doesn’t matter if you believe, I’m different from most of you, I am 26 years old this year, an age where my family will force me to go on blind dates, hence I can understand how he wants to get married and put an end to the single life, it’s just that it isn’t easy to get over things like this. When I say I hate you for not putting yourself in our shoes, I am the one that’s hurting the most. Why can’t I just generously wish you happiness? Why can’t I just generously hand you over to her, telling her this is our precious Sungmin, asking her to treat you well for the rest of her life? Hence as I am feeling disappointed, I feel sorry for not being able to get over it. It’s not entirely your fault, we can only blame you for not handling it well, and blame myself for not being able to let go. 

I once read a story when I was young. It was able two mothers fighting for a child. The judge allowed them to fight for the child, whoever is able to get hold (literally, physically) of the child will get the custody of the child. But once the child felt the pain through the pain from the pulling and snatching, the child cried. One of the mothers let go of her hand. Thus the child gave the custody of the child to the mother who let go of her hand because, if you truly love somebody, you will not bear to hurt him. Hence the one who loves the most, will let go first. Therefore, Lee Sungmin, look, although I cannot understand, I will compromise. At least, in the future, I can proudly say that at the time when I was the maddest at you, when I cannot understand you the most, at your saddest moment in life, when you’re being doubt by everybody, I was by your side. I know I will not regret this decision. 

After so much ranting, Oh Pitaya (OPTY)’s stand is that we will not be affected because of Sungmin’s marriage. We will carry on going for events and everything will stay the same. As long as Super Junior is still around, OPTY will be around. At the same time, I hope that Sungmin’s decisions will be right and that he will be happy and blessed. 

Lastly, I’m sorry for not being able to give my blessing for the two of you, but I believe, that being there for you is the best way to convey (confess) my love for you.

Translation by: @Hyerin_57

141014 Sungmin blog update trans

Title: To.
Message: To. Everyone Who Allowed the Current Me to Exist


Hello, this is Sungmin.
What words to say first... I thought of it countless times, even just the first sentence.
I wrote and deleted countless times, and while doing that, I could remember the thankful faces..
and their voices more..
I write this letter with a heavy and cautious heart.
Everyone, I met a good person, and will be getting married on 12/13.
Thinking about you guys who received the news suddenly today, my heart aches.
I wanted to give the news to my precious friend, and those who love me, to E.L.F. first, and was thinking about how to say it and when.. Sorry that you guys learned through it first through the news article.
To be honest, before I passed this news, because of the decision I am making, and with thoughts about those who have been with me till now...
There was a lot of time that I conflicted (within myself) a lot and endured it alone.
Not because I was afraid of my decision, but worried how surprised my thankful people will be when they hear this news that they've never experienced before, worried about how they could be hurt. 
It's a bit late, but with the courage from your big love and trust in me, I announce this news myself.
I really want to say that I am truly thankful to you guys, who watched me- like a shadow-grow up from nobody and cheered me on.
I am really thankful to those who helped me so far, and members and the company who trust my decision and respect it. 
I will continue to work harder from now on, and will become Sungmin-ee who repay your love.

Cr : @NKsubs

LIVSM's message to Sungmin

This essay, I've written for months and edited hundreds of times. The day I publish this, is when you first announce your marriage.

Why did I write such a long eessay.. Because I totally understand how every fan who loves you feels about this statement. It's like a bomb, that will cause explosion to Sungmin fans, SJ fans and even fans of Hallyu. Following this, Sungmin fans will enter the stage of silence. Because when you first announced, I had full confidence in saying I'll be by your side, I believed this won't end up in marriage and that the girl's revealing made you a victim, but in the end I was struck with this. The anger and disappointment I felt came back, and I can't get rid of it. This response may be worse than the impact if you had directly admitted wanting to get married. I know, things can't progress the way we want them too, you definitely didn't know it will end up like this. So I wrote this, to pen down my journey of knowing this for months, hope that I can, for the fans who have entered a patch of darkness have light, hope that even if they still want to leave you, they won't resentfully harm you. When you published relationship news, I posted that I won't say anything about it because it wasn't time for me to say my opinions, but now, it's the time for it.

Many problems in the process will compromise his privacy and the degree of exposure of this situation so I can't say, but generally I definitely, from the day I first found out till now, had no change in my disappointment and pain inside, instead it slowly increased throughout the progress of this situation, especially when he first admitted dating and the whole world could't find him to ask him about it, but came to me instead. Compared to him, I had bigger pressure. Even though they're my own friends, I couldn't breathe a word, meeting my friends who because of not knowing the situation was furious and hurt. I also couldn't explain, so I became more worried that when they find out the marriage, they would be so disappointed in you. Anger can subside, hurt can be comforted, but disappointment is something I cannot help (him) with (doing so).

When I first found out, I personally went to Sungmin to confirm it. Although he was shocked on me knowing, but he honestly admitted. What happens after admitting? I totally didn't prepare what to do afterwards. Lee Sungmin, this decision is selfish and childish. Why did you choose now? Why must it be this person? Why must you marry? Enlisting and marriage, these two things are the most fatal to idols, others try to avoid as much as they can, but you add both together instead? Your actions will have big impact on you. and even on SJ as a whole, did you really think clearly? I used to worry that because of your personality you may secretly enlist quietly, but now I see that I was completely in the wrong direction. What did I come to Korea for? What did I spend all my years of youth doing? Why am I still staying in Korea? At home there's stacks and stacks of stuff I need to send out, what am I doing? Suddenly felt that my left thumb kept having painful pricks, people say all 10 fingers are related to the heart, but when my heart was ripped apart, only my left thumb will hurt along, maybe because I felt too much hurt that makes me not feel pain anymore. so I used another method to remind myself I was genuinely shedding tears, that I really am upset. I couldn't talk to others, really too hard on me, so I called my mother. My mum likes Kyuhyun a lot, these years I chase Sungmin she knows all about it, when I chase overseas she pays all my expenses. After listening to me, she only said that if it's that painful, come home, don't need to study anymore, I also don't need you to come home with certificate, I just want you to be fine. At that time, I really cried like a fool, really really missed my parents so much, thinking of kangkang (dog?) at home thinking of the many who love me.

Second day, with my eyes swollen like peaches, I went to meet Sungmin's mum. I felt that he might have discussed with her the previous day, because such a major issue found out by fans, if I didn't keep it down and said it out, everything will be destroyed. He also guessed that I would look for her. so he told her first. When I reached the shop, I tried to casually indirectly bring it up, but ended up talking about other things. Then she spoke up first, saying "You went to the fansign yesterday right, how was it? So I said, mm, I know about his marriage. She didn't change expression, and smiled as she waited for me to finish talking, so I knew that he must have prepared her already. Then I said everything that happened, including how I found out and that I'm worried and don't understand. She smiled and listened, and talked to me the whole afternoon/ My worries and lack of understanding, she tried hundred times. But under the sky, there's no parent that can win their child; Sungmin's determinance on this, even his parents, members and company couldn't block his way. At first, everyone didn't approve, but talked again and again with parents, members and company, slowly changing their opinions. Now, everyone respects his decision. Remaining problem is the biggest, which is fans. I'm also a fan, he and his parents' straightforwardness is not easy, from the beginning I have no right to say anything about his life. Discuss calmly, want marry just marry, is not something that can't be accepted, I felt disappointment mainly because of suspicious towards the girl. But Sungmin said, among the girls he dated, there's girls who are more luxurious, there's those who are very introverted and quiet, many kinds of girls, but Kim Saeun is very very outgoing, when she talks she is straightforward, although she has rich family background but she never had arrogance of a wealthy girl, when together with her there's no stress only happiness, any hardships after talking to her will disappear, so he feels very comfortable, feels that she is the right one. After hearing, I believe many people, like me, can only choose to be silent. Lee Sungmin this fool, just live happily, just feel blessed and all is fine. 

So I wrote a very long letter to him, it includes saying that although I want to comfort myself, but I who love you for 7 years, words of blessing is too cruel for me to say, I can't do it. Although I really wanted to say, don't marry, but thinking of how many years I've been beside you as a fan, thinking of members' words, but I know that now you're bearing the weight of the whole world, I don't want to add on to it so I decided to be by your side. All these years of being to Korea, all of my life is related to you, I follow you to concerts worldwide, friends are all buddies who chase SJ, I already, I've reached the point I can no longer remove you from my world. I can respect your decision, but now I cannot give both of you my blessing. I'm sincerely hoping you feel happiness every day, so when you're at your most difficult and most stressful time now, I will stay, and when you announce it, I will stand up and stand beside you to protect you. This is my promise. But that aside, what others cannot do, don't expect me to. I don't know what will the future be, but when you enlist I will find my own happiness, I will also marry and have my own life, and when my happiness comes, I will close this site. Hope that then, I can be one of your friends, and after many years sit down and chat happily about the years of difficulty without restriction. As a fan, it's my biggest wish

When he read it, he acknowledged it to me, then at every fansign he will ask what I want him to write and seriously write it, genuinely thank you, my friend. When he wrote every stroke of that, I felt that actually there's many things I have no need to say anymore, it's not that he's unaware, he's just not saying it. Regarding those who want to protect him till the end, he is seriously grateful. Although many things are not the same anymore, but he's still the beautiful him, the one who earns so much money himself but passes all to his mum to look after, although he himself knows he account and password but every month uses pocket money, and occasionally when not enough he will behave like a kid and whine until his mum approves then uses the money. Him who after a few words of praise from sunbaes can be happy until his mouth cannot close for a whole day, him who after getting daesang will shout ASA then bring his family out to an expensive resturant for a meal, him who every morning wakes up to exercise yet unfortunately is still chubby, him who when looking at good food will drool and eyes will brighten, him who often don't draw eyeliner and have failed hairstyle and hence get laughed at by members, him who on the stage shines and give off heat that warms my life.

I, am just a small fan after all.

Between fans and idol, from the beginning it's a one-sided love without reward, when I first chose this LoveInVain name, everyone sayd it's really special, beautiful and realistic. I also said before, because it's Sungmin, I am willing to do one-sided love. Now this sentence has never changed, only that he himself has a new identity, as a fan there are things I can't do like the past anymore. Form now, I won't relentlessly chase him overseas as much anymore, even on his schedules I won't always attend, but activities-wise I will still try my best to go, I will still help, like I said, my life already has a new page, regarding my contributions to Sungmin and my own life management have found a balance. LoveInVain will still be here, I will still do the usual, I promised him to stand by him I won't eat my words, like what a fan said, blessing their happiness is fake, but blessing his happiness, it's whole-hearted.

Cr : @ryeongbb

Happy 8th Anniversary Super Junior!!!~~~~

yuhuuu~~~~ yesterday was an anniversary for my beloved, the one and only k-pop group that i am loyal with, which is SUPER JUNIOR~~~~~~~

and when the clock strikes 12, terus la aku ni spam twitter with RT from Sj members and NKsubs.. naseb la kawan2 yg follow tu.. mesti menyirap je TL dorang penuh dengan SJ. hehehe

pastu kat insta pon ade la aku upload gambar sebagai tanda kasih cinta dan sayang dekat mereka nih.. poyo kan ayat aku? :P

full of tweet & rt about SJ. isk3~

download pic on tumblr

update on insta

btw3~ guys~~~ there will be many groups that will come out as an idol, but be assure that Super Junior will always standing. your King of Hallyu will never fade away. this is the vow of the Everlasting Friends (ELF)

love you guys~~~~ ELF, lets create words forever together with our beloved SJ <3 font="">

PICTURE SPAMMING~~~~~

P/S: PIC AND GIFS ARE NOT MINE. CREDIT TO THE OWNER. YOU GUYS ROCK~

Kibum's letter to all Super Junior member

Super Junior

Park  Jungsoo

Leeteuk

Eeteuk hyung is like a brother and a father. I always try to be a child that he doesnt have to worry about. Even though i know that he feels helpless that i dont always fit in but he always supported me. Sometimes i will even tease him that sacrifying his idol image to be  funny is useless. But he knows that i still care a lot for him. And dont want him to be so tired. And then one day he faced the camera and said while smiling "actually Kibum is the only child that i have always worried about.". Not caring about how many tears he had shed but still shouting my name. He's even willing to once again sacrify for my sake. Eeteuk hyung, Kibum loves you, and so i will walk with you until the end.

Kim Heechul

Heechul

Heechul hyung, to me, is the most special. At first we couldnt get along with each other. You didnt like my informality to you, and i didnt like you treating me differently than everyone else. And then fate brought us together, during those days filming Rainbow Romance. I slowly started understanding you, and you started accepting me. And i became Kim Heechul's favourite dongseng. Until today, when i look at everything you've done to me, i can only choose to help you along, because that was how you cared for me. After the car accident, and when you had surgery, when Hankyung hyung wasnt with you, i was with you. Heechul hyung, you have always used your strength and persistence to protect me, so hyung,Kibum wont dissapoint you.

Hangeng

Hangeng

Hankyung hyung, i feel like we are very similar. For your dream, you travel far from your home, while i for my dream, returned to my home. But we were both far from our families, had no friends, and had to start over. It was a lot like returning to those three years when i first arrived in America. I didnt have friends and i couldnt communicate. Those days were hard to endure. Hankyung hyung would smile a warm smile every time and his strength made me ashamed of myself. Hankyung hyung, those days not fitting in were hard, right? Charging forward and retreating were both difficult.i think i understand you, and i think you understand me as well. We are two children who wander for our dreams. Hankyung hyung, even with everything going on now, can we still walk together? I think we will never give up.

Jongwoon

Yesung

Yesung hyung, i have to admit that you can sometimes make people speechless. you're always making jokes and spamming no matter where me are or what mood we're in. But Jongwoon hyung, your voice is what i envy the most. I know you are SJ's irreplaceable main vocal. But to create that funny atmosphere you hurt your idol image. Actually away from the camera, you are very charming, and you always quietly do your share. The strong little boy from Chungnam has become a reliable mountain. Jongwoon hyung, even though sometimes i'll forget, but i know you are the big parent of the SJ family. Without you, Teuk hyung wouldnt be able to withstand at all.

Kim Youngwoon

Kangin

Kangin hyung, no Youngwoon hyung. Everyone says that if there's a kind mother in a family, then there must be a strict father. You are that strict father. But i know that in actually you heart is the softest and easiest to pick on. You take up all the burdens yourself, protecting even Teuk hyung. When we were filming the movie you said you are going to work had for SJ, and you really fight hard for us, as a person who discard the idol image and has only a face. When we were first debuted, i know that i was in charge the cover boy, and was in charge of popularity. But now that i think about it, i really wanted you to take care of me, and tell everyone, "This is my dongsaeng, an equally excellent actor; he doesnt just have a pretty face!". Youngwoon hyung, i'll follow you, and believe in you, all the way to the end.

Shin Donghee

Shindong

Shindong hyung, happy and chubby Shindong hyung. I know that when we first debuted you had the most pressure, with all the debate about you. What they dont know is, to choreograph our charming dances, how many all-nighters you pulled. Today, you have already become 100% talented fellow. While i am proud of you, i feel ashamed and want to say Shidong hyung thank you, dont ever say anymore of those "I'm dragging down SJ's popularity so i'll quit.". Without you, our dances wouldnt be as organized and synchronized. Without you, who would rap with us? So you have to wait for me, to once again stand up on that stage with you, and we'll shout out our name together.

Lee Sungmin

Sungmin

Sungmin hyung, the one in charge of cuteness in SJ. Hehe, aren't our laughs similar? Fans describe us similarly. You're a cute rabbit, but have they ever seen you practicing martial arts? Actually, you're a tough man, stubborn and aren't willing to shed a single tears. When we won the big award at the end of the year, when we were standing at our highest, you watch us all in a crowd, crying and comforted each one of us, smiling and refusing to cry. Offstage, you had your head bowed, and i knew you were crying for everything we've gone through in the past. Sungmin hyung, you said that you have 6 hyungs and 6 dongsaengs so you have to be strong and couldn't cry. Sungmin hyung is the most overall perfect person. Because of you, i don't have to worry about anything.

Lee Hyukjae

Eunhyuk

Eunhyuk hyung, hey Lee Hyukjae! Are you crying again? You're so silly, a crybaby. Yeah, if you weren't silly, why would you give up so many chances just to be with your good friends? If you weren't silly, then why would you slip out to meet with his fans to cheer him on without him knowing when he debuted before you? If you weren't silly, then you wouldn't have pretended to be cool and fine but secretly cried for a month. Silly people have their happiness. In SJ, you are the main dancer. This position, no one can take from you. Oh right, you can also write songs and lyrics. We really can't see from your appearance that you also have a passionate side. Hey Lee Hyukjae, like before, divide your rap half and half with me, we can do it together. You have to wait for me. And guys really lose a lot of face when they cry, okay? Also, don't lie to me. I have had enough of your "image control". Remember, you have to wait for me.

Lee Donghae

Donghae

Donghae, my Lee Donghae. I won't call you hyung because i feel like i'm the hyung, a hyung that should protect you. My Lee Donghae has a pair of unforgettable eyes; your smile is so pure and innocent, causing my ice cold heart to melt in an instant. I still remember when i first came to Korea. A completely foreign environment. It was you who was the first to hold out your hand, it was you who hugged the really scared me. Let's be brothers forever, okay? Lee Donghae is Kim Kibum's best friend. I'll be your hyung, okay? When your father died, the impact it had on you i can never forget, but i couldn't spend too much time comforting you, because i have to stick to my work. I can't let other people look down on us, right? Lee Donghae is the kindest person. Teuk hyung said that we two were the two children he trusted the most. If you're overseas, don't be homesick. Follow the hyungs, i believe you can do it.

Choi Siwon

Siwon

Siwon hyung.. I finally got to you, Choi Siwon. Are you really an angel? Or did the environment you grew up in not allow you to see evil in the world? You know, you gave me a lot of pressure. While i looked at you, i often feel ashamed of myself. I still remember you hanging around me hiding in a corner, wanting to be my friend. At that time, your face was so sincere. I felt that this world really did have angels. At that time, you saved me? I, a person who came from such a different background and environment, was able to become your friend. Maybe when i'm tired, i should do as Kangin hyung suggested; whine and act cute and say i'm tired, and not stick it out all alone. I think Siwon hyung, you would help me, right? It's been decided. I want to rely on you, because your shoulders are the most reliable. Don't let go, okay?

Kim Ryeowook

Ryeowook

Ryeowook-ah, the hyung who is only older by a feew days, and yet always calls himself the magnae. To me, you're the 100% magnae, a dongsaeng that always need to be taken care of and cherish. When we first debuted, you were the last one who took Junyoungie place and joined us. You had the aura of only having trained for a few weeks, but they never saw how much you worked. In such a short time, you went from a cute chubby boy to your current image. How much did you suffer? I only know that you can never gain weight and be like you were before. Ryeowook-ah, without me by your side, it is hard to get used to? Don't worry and don't cry, i'm still waiting for you to sing and play piano pieces for me. Kim Ryeowook is the best. SJ's eternal magnae. We have to be the magnae that the hyungs would be the most proud of, right?

Cho Kyuhyun

Kyuhyun

Kyuhyun, Cho Kyuhyun i feel that you are the one that causes the hyungs to have the most headaches, a stubborn evil child. Armed with your magnae status, who knows how many times you have picked on the hyungs. But every time i see your smile after your evil plan has been achieved, i'm not angry at all because you have finally shown who you really are. As the last member to join SJ, you had a lot of hard time at the beginning. Do you remember? When fans give you your first present? You had disbelief all over your face. When you sang on stage, you made everyone proud. It was almost like you were born to be in SJ. After that hellish training, you have finally grown up. When you got back to the dorm you purposely ignore your hyungs, and go directly to bed. You really re an evil child. When you dragged your still healing body to give the 2jib a complete stage, i was really worried. Today, you are standing on the stage calling for me, just as we called for you. Because of this, hyung will be back soon. You GameKyu, just wait for my PK with you. Watch me beat you!

E.L.F

sapphire blue oceans'

And to the last member of our family.. You've been waiting for me for a very long time now right? Despite of everything you still protect me and believe in me. Words are not enough how much i thank and love you. Please wait a little more because the time that, I Super Junior's Kim Kibum will be able to sing again in front of your sapphire blue ocean is coming near! My dear E.L.F i will be back for you.

until the day when Sapphire Blue covers the world.